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tw// mentions of suicidal thoughts and self harm
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thread to clarify myself and just explaining my emotions
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thread to clarify myself and just explaining my emotions
i'm never opening up to my parents ever again. i tried to stay calm, explain it, my father was like a little child trying to convince my mother that i was in the wrong. in the endnthey just guilt-schoved me to death. literally. i just wanted to slam the door to the balcony […]
open and jump off that shit. i don't wanna live anymore, i'm just here so that my father can flex. well, guess what?i'm not a doll. i'm not your emotionless doll obligated to do what you want. i'm trying, even when i don't do much, i'm trying, i sleep-deprive myself for […]
assignments. my psyche is pretty much dead by now. the reason i don't do much is because i'm scared to do things wrong. i'm scared that everything's...useless. but my parents won't understand because i'm just a CHIIIIIIIIIILDDDDD. but i shouldn't be. everything i even try to […]
do is just wrong and useless. i feel like no one cares about me. my toxic irl friends would never even care the slightest about me. so i abandoned them a while ago. wouldn't be a loss for them anyway. they only contacted me if they needed sumn. my mother wanted me to show […]
exhibits...nah. you wouldn't even believe me anyway?? you literally just showed that to me...
now that i'm here i'll try to explain things because most of the things i like and tweet have an explanation.
1. - 'komm, süßer tod' is my themesong
i tweeted that one or two […]
now that i'm here i'll try to explain things because most of the things i like and tweet have an explanation.
1. - 'komm, süßer tod' is my themesong
i tweeted that one or two […]
times and you probably asked yourself why this or why such a dark song. my irls probably think that i'm their doll, obligated to do what pleases THEM. but inside, the true me…is pretty much this song. i never have found a song that summs up my true feelings that perfectly.
2. - my sleep deprivation
yall probably noticed that i pretty much sleep-deprive myself. if you were concerned, at least a bit: thank you so, so much. my irls would never. so basically i just get shouted at the whole day and when it's late i can finally have some free time […]
yall probably noticed that i pretty much sleep-deprive myself. if you were concerned, at least a bit: thank you so, so much. my irls would never. so basically i just get shouted at the whole day and when it's late i can finally have some free time […]
where not everything i do is fucking useless. i can just listen to music IN PEACE WHILE NOT FEARING TO BE CAUGHT while my inner dying-process is stopped for at least a while.
3. - my passion for lewd asmr and basically streams in general
i know that i might listen to way […]
3. - my passion for lewd asmr and basically streams in general
i know that i might listen to way […]
too much streams, i've basically being enjoying them since my twitter account even existed in the first place. but here's the reason: i basically built fake-scenarios in my head where i'm actually cared about, where someone talks to me VOLUNTARILY about something else than […]
school CALMLY. i didn't even get a loveable, honest hug in years. tbh, i don't even deserve one in the first place but…still. i feel like no one would voluntarily care, so i fill my loneliness with streams.
4. - my 'love(?)' for luby
i've already done a few threads on […]
4. - my 'love(?)' for luby
i've already done a few threads on […]
this, but i feel like i'll have to say the whole story here. he sparks joy, he gives me happiness, his voice just comforts me a lot. and our interactions…i honestly didn't think that this could ever happen?? it's like a dream has come true. he's the literal reason why […]
i'm still alive. i'm so, so thankful that he just does his thing. seeing him progressing and just…growing up means a lot to me, not gonna lie. i just felt like this had to be said here.
i'm not allowed to go on my devices now for…i dunno how long. ok, then i guess that […]
i'm not allowed to go on my devices now for…i dunno how long. ok, then i guess that […]
i'm not even allowed to work and feel happiness now?? great. i guess i'll just scratch my wrist since i don't have better things to do. and reading citrus, of course…but the thing is, that i feel like my world just has collapsed. everything and everyone i find happiness […]
in or who ACTUALLY care for me, even if it's just the tiniest bit, is found here, on twitter.
also, taiku, if you're reading this rn, feel free to send your letter as soon as it's ready. at least i'll have 1 (one) communication method…
i don't know when or if i'll even […]
also, taiku, if you're reading this rn, feel free to send your letter as soon as it's ready. at least i'll have 1 (one) communication method…
i don't know when or if i'll even […]
come back, so this is probably the most important thread i've ever done…so i really, REALLY wanna thank you all, my moots, my oshis, utaitetwt, everyone. thank you for being there for me in such times.
