A honest thread about my teen years
Growing up a woman one of my most painful memories is the twilight years between girl/teen/woman
Growing breasts was the biggest betrayal my body could ever have done to me
I went fro being percieved as a child to being perceived as a woman
What fell like over night
Men started looking at me differently
I started to notice myself in the context of others and all of a sudden my body was not just my body, it was something that existed for others to judge
All this because if a pair of front sacks filled w fat
Sex and sexuality, two things completely foreign to me was now thrown upon me like I was supposed to know what any of it meant
My sex, woman, and my sexuality, it belongs to men, was two things I never even thought about before but all of a sudden it was front and center
I hated it!
I hated it more than anything!
I hated those fucking things growing on me, what they did to me, how they felt and how they made others see me
Why did I have to go through life like this?

The years went by and I started to become friends with myself and my body
I even became friends w being a woman
I became friends w my sex and my sexuality.
Almost every woman I ever spoken to has felt like this growing up
That the step between girl and woman is a long barren road that is full of thorns and hurdles to overcome
I still have the feelings that my body is betraying me
Especially when I put on a few pounds and my female features get more noticeable
I tried to work around this for many years by staying skinny to the point of looking 2D

Even if I went through all of this it never once hit
Me that this was dysphoria or that I could "fix it" by identifying by another gender

Today I would have been told I have dysphoria, that I would be better of a man and that I will feel safer and better identifying out if it
And I would probably have listened
What differs dysphoria from adolescence?
Why are young women being told that they can "fix themselves" instead of getting the support they so desperately need?
Why are we today that what we feel is "Wrong" when we need to be told that it's how the society views us that is
Women are not born "wrong", we are born women in to a world that sexualize us and make us think is our fault when we feel scared and insecure
We are not wrong, we are never "wrong".
We need to be there for our younger sisters, reminding them they they're not the problem
A society built on porn and patriarchal structures is
We need to be there to remind them when they're scared that its gonna be ok, that we're in this together
And we need to be there telling our younger sisters that we take the fight now so they dont have to later
I just want to say thank you to all of you sharing your own experiences
Thank you for being so open and honest about what is a very difficult time
We need to have this discussion to show young women, and ourselves, that none of us is alone
Thank you ❤
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