Thread by @KitaraSPN, I've done a lot of thinking these past days and while I've [...]

I've done a lot of thinking these past days and while I've shared other people's opinion, listened and processed, I've kept my own thoughts mostly to myself. But now I've had time to go through the motions and let things settle, so here's #MyTwoCents now - please bear with me.

You should know about me that I'm bigender and bisexual but not a shipper. I've spent years with this show and developed my own opinions and feelings for the characters. I always loved TFW with Dean as my #1. And I learned to love the actors - all three of them.

I never understood the fascination of shipping. If I did not see it on screen,it just didn't work for me. And yes, I find certain ships ridiculous,even repugnant at times. BUT I never judged people for liking it. Live and let live. As long as you don't force your opinion on me

and stay fair and respectful, I'm fine with it.
Then I saw that people started fighting over it, harrassing actors with questions, making them uncomfortable, disrespecting them, saying things were canon when they clearly were not.

They even said the actors have no say in whether it's canon or not. RED FLAG!
I curated my twitter and found good people and learned what the #SPNFamily really is: Respect, kindness, tolerance, support and a whole lot of weird. And I fell in love with the show and the family.

My opinions on shipping became stronger because it triggered me in ways I'd rather not explain. So I curated twitter even further so that I barely saw any shipping content anymore. I now know that this was a bad decision. I'll tell you why.

When 15.18 happened there was that moment of "oh please no". My heart started pounding and the "I love you" felt like a knife to my heart. WAIT! Keep reading! I felt betrayed and suddenly it felt like the last 12 years were turned upside down. I needed to process. And I did.

I was angry at first,tried to deny it,then I thought about it again and again and my own process and what Misha and Jensen said about it helped me. And I found peace. My own version that acknowledges the love Cas feels,yet cherishes what I believe was real over the last years.

When I opened up I realized that some of my twitter friends ship Destiel and even my girlfriend. When she told me about it I was shocked. Why? Because she had kept it a secret because she knew I didn't like it. I felt like a total ass!Was I that intolerant? Spoiler Alert: YES!

So I kept thinking and reflecting and tried to see what the shippers had seen for years. And I still did not share their view but I started to understand. And I was able to share Destiel fan art with my girlfriend open up for a dialog about Cas' reactions in certain scenes.

I rewatched 15.18 and this time I saw the beauty. The love and happiness and it did not hurt. Because I had let go of my expectations. I still don't LIKE it but I've made my peace with it. And that's what counts. Because it is what it is,if we like it or not.

Then 15.19 happened and I loved every part of it. Even Dean's silence about the confession because to me it made perfect sense. Then 15.20 happened. Yes I cried,I was heartbroken,I hated to see this kind of end. It was not what I had wanted. But it was what I needed.

Everything fell into place and made sense and it gave me closure. And I felt incredibly thankful and proud when I saw Jared and Jensen's message to the fans.
Then somebody threw a match into the fandom and BOOM. Chaos,Anarchy,Hate,Intolerance,War

Chaos,Anarchy,Hate,Intolerance,War. I didn't get it. I still don't. It's okay if you don't like the finale. Whatever you feel is valid. BUT please reflect on your view just like I did. WHY does it hurt you? And is what hurts you even true? You might see it but is it real?

Listen to others,process their alternative views and try to find peace. And you don't have to betray your own opinion for this. You can stay true to yourself and still make peace with something you don't like. Because YOU CAN'T CHANGE IT!

What you can change is the fandom. You praised the actors for years and now that they gave you their best,hoping you would like it,you rip it to shreds.They poured their heart into it and you try to burn down the show,their accomplishments and the fandom they were so proud of.

Is that what we want to stand for? Hating people because they did something we don't like? When Sam drank demon blood, he was forgiven. When Cas let out the Leviathans, he was forgiven. When Dean turned into a demon, he was forgiven.

So why don't the fans forgive the actors/writers,too? That's part of the show's message! Be loyal,loving,forgiving. At the moment many fans are none of that.Sam, Cas and Dean made mistakes and we forgave them because they thought they did the right thing. So did the cast/crew.

People who called Jensen homophobic just two weeks ago now call him king. People who praised Misha now cause him sleepless nights and pain. They did not betray you. But you are betraying them by doing what you do now.

Acting like this means burning down everything SPN stood for.I don't care if you liked the finale,if you ship or what you think they did wrong. But if you spread hate,pain,intolerance,attacks and even blunt LIES then you disgrace yourself as a fan +all you ever liked about SPN.

So please,stop demanding,destroying,lying,blaming,fighting. Start forgiving,caring,loving,accepting. Let the show rest in peace just like Sam, Dean and Cas do. And let the #SPNFamilyForever

CARRY ON because that's what the finale was all about.
#ThankYouSupernatural

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