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I think it's pretty normal as a creator to have those times when you doubt your abilities, your worth. "Does what I put out there matter? Am I any good? Do people like it?" (and I /know/ there's the idea that it shouldn't matter, that creating for yourself is enough) +
But also... don't we create for others to enjoy? Don't we want to know that what we're making has an impact, that someone out there likes it, is affected by it?
I think it's normal to experience this, but I often don't talk about it here. +
I think it's normal to experience this, but I often don't talk about it here. +
A lot of that is bc I don't want to be annoying or off putting, that instinctually I try to act confidently bc I was told that was more appealing, and there's that "fake it til you make it" concept which... debatable, honestly. +
At least a few times a month I dip low like this, feel that what I'm creating isn't good enough, and as much as I try not to compare myself to others, I feel it's not /as good/. +
Numbers shouldn't matter but they're almost the only metric we have to assess the response from an otherwise silent consumer.
Why am I saying this? Honestly, I'm doubting myself tonight. Inevitably tomorrow will be better, and maybe for a few days, weeks, it won't bother me. +
Why am I saying this? Honestly, I'm doubting myself tonight. Inevitably tomorrow will be better, and maybe for a few days, weeks, it won't bother me. +
I just think it's important to acknowledge that this is a normal part of the cycle for creators. That wondering what your impact is, that wanting people to like what you do, happens to a lot of us. +
Do I sometimes want to print out all of my work and light it on fire? Fuck yes I do. Am I going to wake up tomorrow, open one of the 575633 WIPs I have, and work on it anyway? I definitely am.
