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Who am I when I’m roleplaying, and what does this mean about identity?
This is the type of question that really interests me about games.
This is the type of question that really interests me about games.
If I’m pretending to be a 200-year-old hag in Australia, and I get really into it
that doesn’t mean I know what it’s like to be 200 years old, a hag, or Australian — but I’m not Lucian Kahn at the time either
so who am I at the time
& what does that mean about Lucian Kahn?
that doesn’t mean I know what it’s like to be 200 years old, a hag, or Australian — but I’m not Lucian Kahn at the time either
so who am I at the time
& what does that mean about Lucian Kahn?
Lucian Kahn is my official self, my default self, my resting self,
but who the hell are all these other people? The ones I frame my perception around for hours at a time?
I must be a more expansive creative mind & range of identity & expression than the typical Lucian Kahn.
but who the hell are all these other people? The ones I frame my perception around for hours at a time?
I must be a more expansive creative mind & range of identity & expression than the typical Lucian Kahn.
This is what I mean when I call my gender mercurial.
Lucian Kahn’s gender isn’t mercurial, he’s a male character, my main character, my official self.
But I’m a playful person & don’t always inhabit my official self.
There’s always a more flexible creative mind available.
Lucian Kahn’s gender isn’t mercurial, he’s a male character, my main character, my official self.
But I’m a playful person & don’t always inhabit my official self.
There’s always a more flexible creative mind available.
A lot of trans discourse makes a sharp distinction between everyday genders and temporary, performed genders like drag & acting —
as if drag & acting are somehow less real than the official self because of their...duration?
What are those genders then? Who are those people?
as if drag & acting are somehow less real than the official self because of their...duration?
What are those genders then? Who are those people?
I practiced ceremonial magic very intensely for about 5 years. I did a lot of invocation, taking on the identities of gods and spirits, which is a type of character work.
Who are THOSE people?
Probably not actually Dionysos or whatever, but also not your everyday Lucian Kahn.
Who are THOSE people?
Probably not actually Dionysos or whatever, but also not your everyday Lucian Kahn.
For some people, the borders of the official self are mostly closed, for others, mostly open.
For the most part, I can open or close them at will.
For the most part, I can open or close them at will.
I can play a character while remaining Lucian Kahn in the background, or I can play a character without remaining Lucian Kahn in the background.
Either way, Lucian Kahn will return, though I’m not entirely sure why.
Either way, Lucian Kahn will return, though I’m not entirely sure why.
I’ve only been Lucian Kahn since 2009.
I’ve always been me, however, this perceiver, this doer, this imagination.
I never forgot how to play pretend as a kid plays pretend.
I experience playing a role as a RELIEF. A break from being Lucian Kahn, even though I enjoy being Lucian Kahn.
It’s like recess.
It’s like recess.
This has been another long early morning Lucian Kahn thread about the liminality of the self.
thank you for coming to my DEAD talk
thank you for coming to my DEAD talk
