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Now I realize that I can’t speak for other butch women only truly myself here but here are some thoughts. Thoughts brought to you by the discussion on @widerlenspod most recent show. As a butch woman who did transition in my mid 30’s there was so many components to why
Now I realize that I can’t speak for other butch women only truly myself here but here are some thoughts. Thoughts brought to you by the discussion on @widerlenspod most recent show. As a butch woman who did transition in my mid 30’s there was so many components to why
I thought Transitioning was the answer. But a big component to it was being so tired of the daily struggle of being masculine. I got called sir at least once a week since I was 21. Every time the mistake was followed up with much apologies from the person who was mistaken.
Usually in a public place where many other people could witness the whole situation & leave me standing there with a spotlight on me. I imagined people were scanning me for the tell tell signs of femaleness. That’s just one example. From the outside I seemed like
A well adjusted proud & happy butch woman. I was married & had a family. However it was all a show. I often had to white knuckle my way through the day because I really didn’t want to leave the house & feel exposed. Some days I didn’t care but some days I felt like me skin was
on fire. I fully accept that I am on the over sensitive side. I always have been. I was a very shy kid. I don’t like to stand out I like to hide. You can’t do that when you look different. Then there was the internalization of the reflection I saw from society. I was told I
Acted like a boy/man for so many years that I ended up believing it. Or maybe agreeing with it. I often wonder if this is one of the big driving forces of older butch lesbians who transition. As well as internalized homophobia. Well, feel free to discuss. That’s my take at least.
