people will literally talk you to death about how much they love & appreciate you but will have nothing to show for it. they won’t fight for you, they won’t go out of their way for you, they won’t even communicate with you. how much could i have meant really?
maybe what they loved was what you could provide for them. an escape, some attention, your endless love & affection, your patience, your kindness, your light... yeah maybe they loved what you could do for them more than they loved you.
because if you’ve told them multiple times what you wanted... & it was bare minimum things... & they still found a way to resist that... what is that telling you? i’ll tell you the one thing it’s telling you for sure.
that they simply cannot give you what you need right now & sometimes that’s enough information necessary in order for you to find peace. stop asking “why can’t you just do this for me!” over & over again. start accepting & saying “okay, that didn’t work. were incompatible in
this regard. better luck next time with someone else.” because you deserve love. they may not be able to give you the love you desire but it’s not the end for you. not your job to figure out why they can’t either. it’s your job to maintain your peace & happiness baby.
i get it. you’ve invested so much time & energy into this person & you even like spending time with them too. that’s all good & well, but when the scales are that imbalanced in a dynamic & you’re coming out with the shorter end of the stick every time... something’s got to give.
do not silence the parts of you that want to be watered & feel neglected/left in the dark to rot. you water damn near every part of the person you love, so why the fuck don’t you deserve that same nurturance back? YOU DO. YOU DESERVE TO FEEL HOW YOU MAKE THEM FEEL EVERYDAY.
don’t convince yourself “well i’m ok, i’m self-sufficient i can water myself” that is irrelevant! even if you’re independent & can water yourself, you still deserve that EXTRA bc now you’re watering yourself & them & guess what , you may not feel the deficit now but you will.
this goes for love relationships, family and platonic friendships. you simply deserve more & i want you to learn how to demand that for yourself, unapologetically. most times, you’re not being sensitive, over analytical or ridiculous. they’re just self-absorbed to a degree.